Host: O.Xu
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Yap is in Session
Join a group chat of femmes and queers in discourse about an inflammatory piece of popular culture.
Transcription
- Frank: Well, you know, I - I moved here because, uh…I moved here because, you know, well, I had to leave the States, but I picked Thailand because, uh, because I always had a thing for Asian girls, you know. And when I got here, you know, I was like a kid in a candy store: got money, no attachments, nothing to do, and I started partying. It got wild. I was picking up girls every night. Always different ones. Petite ones, chubby ones, older ones, and sometimes multiple ladies a night. I – I was out of control. I became insatiable. And uh... you know, after about a thousand nights like that, you start to lose it. I started wondering “where am I going with this? Wh- why do I feel this need to fuck all these women? What is desire? The form of this cute Asian girl, why does it have such a grip on me? Because she’s the opposite of me? Is she gonna complete me in some way?” I realized, I could fuck a million women, I’d still never be satisfied. Maybe – maybe what I really want is to BE one of these Asian girls.
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- Rick: (long pause) Really?
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- Frank: You know?
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- Rick: Not – not really.
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- Frank: No, really. Really. So one night I took home some girl, turned out to be a ladyboy, which I’d done before, but this time, instead of fucking the ladyboy, the ladyboy fucked ME. And it was kinda magical. And it got in my head, what I really wanted was to BE one of these Asian girls, getting fucked, by me, and to feel that.
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- Rick: (long pause) Uh huh.
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- Frank: So I put out an ad, looking for a white guy, my age, to come over and fuck me. And that guy looked a lot like me. Then I put on some lingerie and perfume, made myself look like one of these girls... I thought I looked pretty hot. And then this guy came over and railed the shit outta me. And then I got addicted to that. Some nights three, four guys would come over and rail the shit outta me. Some I even had to pay. And at the same time, I’d hire an Asian girl, that’d just sit there and watch the whole thing. I’d look in her eyes while some guy was fucking me and I’d think, “I am her. And I’m fucking me.”
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- Rick: (very long pause) Mm hmm.
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- Frank: Hey, we all have our Achilles heel, man, ya know? Where does it come from? Why are some of us attracted to the opposite form, ya know, and some of us the same? Sex is a poetic act, it’s a metaphor. Metaphor for what? Are we our forms? Am I a middle-aged white guy on the inside, too? Or inside, could I be an Asian girl?
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- Rick: …Right. I don’t know.
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- Frank: I guess I was trying to fuck my way to the answer. And then I realized, I gotta – I gotta stop, the drugs, the girls, the, you know, trying to be a girl. I got into Buddhism, which is all about, you know, spirit versus form, detaching from self, getting off the never-ending carousel of lust and suffering. Being sober isn’t so hard. Being celibate, though, it’s…I still miss that bussy, man.
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- Rick: …Yeah.
Optional Discussion Starters
monologue
- What emotions on the feelings wheel did it elicit for you?
- How did it intrigue or bore you?
- How did it surprise or disgust you?
- How much of it do you think was satire vs. sincere?
- Do you think the phenomenon described by that man is shared by other men? If so, how pervasive do you think it is?
season 3
- Can we talk about that white girl friend group dynamic?
- What did you think about how the Thai characters and how they were written?
- What do you think about the new theme song?
- What do you think about Mike White?
re-watch season 3
- What did you notice more in the re-watch than the first watch?
- Can we talk about the heavy foreshadowing?
chronically online
- Has anyone watched the movie Party Girl (starring Parker Posey)?
- Has anyone watched the Parker Posey and Blake Lively “mean girl” interview?